My avatar is a representation of what I hope to achieve. I can never find the balance between my heart and my brain. I take both into consideration, but one of them always wins and take over. As Clarissa Pinkola Estés said “My brain has no heart, and my heart has no brain. That’s why when I speak my mind, I appear heartless and when I do what’s in my heart I seem thoughtless.” I would like to dream and go with my heart but the my brain comes and brings me back to reality, telling me that what I want isn’t realistic, that I am going to fast, that it will be to risky. Sometimes I ignore my brain and let my heart win, then it get hurt and stops for a little, time goes by and then it forgets. Other times I let my brain win, I let it take the ‘realistic’ route, yet I still lose, I feel like I have missed out. That is why I need to find a balance or else I will never find myself. I will fall into space, I will be stuck there. I might change it, I am a very indecisive person, I will never find a balance, but space is beautiful and I wouldn’t mind just staying there.